So, it’s been a little while

Life’s been complicated over the last couple of weeks, so I haven’t had the time/energy to post much.

The cold from hell turned out to be bronchitis. Yay… >.< Speaking of which, I need to find a new doctor, preferably one which will speak up when their patent’s grandfather follows them into the examination room without being asked to.

Tomorrow is the 20th anniversary of the École Polytechnique massacre, and the 18th annual National Day of Remembrance and Action on Violence Against Women (clearly, whoever came up with the name didn’t expect to have to read it out in from of a crowd). UFV’s memorial was yesterday. Four people showed up for the memorial, aside from myself– and two were related to me. It’s always nice to know my hard work is appreciated. On the other hand, since I only had a week to pull it all together, I think I did an ok job.

Of course, the NDoRaAoVAW (damn, that’s a messy acronym…) has special significance in my family. In 1985, my aunt Kim and her two children were shot and killed by her ex, who had stalked them for several years prior to the murder. The killer was denied parole in February.

I’m supposed to be writing a paper on heterosexism and ageing, but I can’t get motivated. Instead, I’m rereading Lightning on the Waves’ Sacrifices arc, because I’m obviously not depressed enough.

Seriously, if you can read the entire series without crying, you’re probably completely dead inside. Yep, it’s massivley AU. Yep, it’s H/D. Yep, there’s a cubic fuckton of OC’s. Yep, Harry is massively OOC. And yep, it’s probably the best fic I’ve ever read– possibly the best story I’ve ever read, period. Whatever you do, though, don’t ignore the warnings; there’s a lot of potentially triggery stuff.

Goals for the next 5 years

It hit me last night that, come 2010, I’ll have been out of high school for 5 years, and I really haven’t made much progress with… well, anything. So, I’m setting some goals for myself, to be completed before my 10 year high school reunion.

• Medical and legal transition: I want to be legally “Sean Brendan Evans” by this time, and to have been on hormones for long enough to have facial hair. Top surgery is a possibility in this time period as well, but I’m not holding myself to that.
• Get in shape: I want to be in better shape well before this time, and to have been in shape for long enough that I’ll have to work on maintenance rather than weight loss.
• Finish my degree and get a job in a related field: It won’t be enough to simply finish my degree- I need to be working in a job related to it, and possibly be working on my master’s degree as well.

I figure these larger goals will spawn a heap of smaller goals (“lose X lbs.,” etc.) over the next few years, but it seems like a good idea to go into all this with a basic idea of where I want to end up, and a time line to work on.

Showing some pride :)

Just a quick update:

I’m going to be taking over a leadership position for the UFV Pride Network. There’s another guy, Connor, who also volunteered at the same time, but since it’s not a paying position this semester, a collaborative approach with two leaders should work fine.

I’ve already talked to the former Coordinator, John, and the faculty sponsor, and I’ve got a few ideas for events and stuff:

• Sex Ed for Grown-ups:
  A sex-ed presentation dealing with all the stuff that doesn’t get covered in highschool. I’m thinking a panel of presenters, including a health nurse. John, who has experience presenting on the topic of sexual health, has already said he’s willing to help out with this. I’m not sure whether to do this as a one-night event, or a series. It might be good to do this near Valentine’s.
• “Words Matter” poster campaign:
  To deal with the use of queerphobic language on campus, I want to do a poster campaign. All of the posters will contain a legend along the lines of “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me shatter the soul.” Possibly around the DoS?
• Movie Nights! One or two per month.

I’m meeting up with Connor on Monday to pass on info and bounce ideas off of each other.

In the mean time, however, I should be studying for my midterm on Monday- Sociology of Ageing stuff. I also need to work on my annotated bibliography for the same class (my topic? Heteronormativity in policies on ageing/LGBT ageing) and my paper for SCMS 355. Then, I can start studying for my Astronomy midterm. *Sigh* It’s gonna be a busy couple of weeks…

To go, or not to go…

Well, I could go to Astronomy, and listen to the lecture, or I could go home after SCMS, and get an extra 2 hours sleep before my lab tonight. Decisions, decisions…

Ah, who am I kidding? Sleep > Harris’ astronomy lecture. Though Harris’ astronomy lecture can lead to sleep…

Guh

Everyone in my soc class is talking about what great shows they’re watching. Damn, I need to get a TV.

Also from my Soc class (the Sociology of Ageing):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqfFrCUrEbY

‘Tis awesome.

What I should be doing

I’m procrastinating, oh yes I am. What should I be doing instead of sitting here, goofing around with wordpress? Well, let’s see…

1. I should be updating the Chest Binders Reviews website. I’ve got a bunch of reviews sitting in my inbox waiting to go.
2. I should be figuring out how to set up said website so that I don’t have to format/reformat pages every time someone submits a review. And figure out how I’m gonna pay for webspace so I can eventually get the site to the standard I want.
3. I should be doing my readings for class tomorrow.

The problem? I can’t seem to wrap my head around any of it at the moment. There’s plenty of stuff I could blame for not getting the first two on the list done before now (my cold, the fact that until recently, I was semi-homeless and sleeping on the floor of my grandpa’s office, the fact that I just moved into my own place for the first time in my life) but the reality is, I just can’t seem to motivate myself to actually do anything.

Blegh.